MY TESTIMONY

By Crystal Lozano

My name is Crystal Lozano. My journey in my walk with the Lord started in May 2024 when I found myself at my break point and I didn’t know what to do. At this point in my life, my struggles have always been something I have had to figure out on my own.

When I turned 15, I found myself kicked out when my biological mother decided she did not want me in her home because she did not want problems with her husband. I was in the system because I had two beautiful girls by the age of 18 with no support. This was when my struggles of having to figure out my life on my own. I was also blessed to have two other children which made me the woman I am.  Now, I have always struggled with fear of rejection and abandonment due to my mother.  Fast forward to 2023, I got into a relationship with the man who is currently my husband. Things moved very quickly. After six months of being together, we decided to get married thinking we were each other’s soulmates. Then in October, my husband, who had always struggled with mental health issues lost his world, his father. He spiraled out of control. His mental health was worse due to his loss.  He lost himself in his addiction which started huge problems for us in our marriage.

Then March 14, 2024, I lost my sister. My world crumbled and continued to crumble. Then more came the following month on April 13th when my husband decided to leave me.  I struggled trying to deal with my loss and grief, and now, my husband.  I didn’t know what to do with my life anymore. I was once again scared and terrified of being alone, rejected once again by the person I thought would never leave me.  I talked to Pastor Carmen and sister Renee about what was going on and what I was going through at that time. Then that’s when everything changed for the worse, but out of the worst came the best decision I have ever made. It was now May, and they invited me to church. When I stepped foot in church, they told me to pray and give everything to the Lord.  I cried out with my whole heart to the Lord leaving my life in His hands. While I was trying to find myself, still not knowing how to deal with everything going on, I made the biggest mistake of my life that just ruined my marriage. I kept going to church until I was able to finally give my life fully to the Lord with no distractions. This was when I started to feel the presence of the Lord moving in my life. The more I prayed, the more the Lord heard my cries, and was moving in my heart. I knew then I had accepted the Lord completely.  I am thankful Mando introduced me to the idea of the Life Above Reproach program at our church. I knew that I was in this, and I was going to commit to this program and learn the Word more. I didn’t know if I would be able to follow through with this commitment, but I did despite everything going on in my life. I know now that there is no storm that I would not be able to get through with the Lord in my heart and in my life.  This has been my journey and this my testimony, and I will always continue to seek the Lord.