My Testimony

By Renee Gabriele

Born into a God-fearing home with parents that both loved and served the Lord, I was led into a sinner prayer at the age of five.

Understanding that God died for me and loved me at 5 years old was hard for me to understand, but I accepted it in faith as truth. As the years passed, having given my life to Jesus, making Him Lord of my life, growing in knowledge, and understanding of the magnitude of His love was only the beginning.  How I now view God and His plans for me, is so different. His plan for all of mankind is so much greater than I ever imagined.

I never considered that when I read that “God spoke it all into existence” was more than just God speaking some words and it was all “just there”. He had timelines, dates, and He connected the past with the future showing parallels and symbolisms.

He showed us, how the old Israel is connected to the modern world right down to the dates, hours, and even minutes and locations. God’s plan was deeper more complex in His plan for creation, life, heaven, and He made meaning to every concept. What a master blueprint! God created such a masterpiece. Who could possibly turn that down?

I didn’t take it as seriously throughout the years growing up because of the distractions that life brings. I should have been more diligent in my learning.

Now at my present age, it is pretty much all that I think of, and maybe that’s because I’m getting closer to meeting the Lord face-to-face.

I don’t know what it would’ve been like to have never known the Lord.

I don’t see how a person can make plans or have any purpose if they don’t have an understanding of their creator.

Even though when we reach the end of our lives here, we pass through a tunnel and begin our forever at another place. It’s never really over. There’s only two choices hell or heaven.

Throughout my life, there have always been daily struggles, and that’s because this fallen world has led us to believe we’re always missing out on something, and always wanting more, never content, living in a depressed state. We are always trying to better our situation and find fulfillment in everything we do.

I recently read a book that brought it all so clear for me.  Jonathan Chan wrote the book the “Oracle.” In his book, chapter 64, he talks about the similarities between Israel and the New World.  He speaks of Israel always wanting to go back and never feeling at home throughout the generations.  He shows how we have the same struggle as Israel has had and still has.

This depressed state of always wanting more, never feeling like we fit in, always looking for something better, never content, is because of the fall.  We live outside our inheritance. This is not something that we as Christians just experience. This is the whole world.

This emptiness is what God wants to change in our lives. I didn’t put much thought into this until now, being older. Yes, I had an understanding that God will fill the gap when you surrender your life, but I didn’t really understand the true “why “in it all. I didn’t realize the similarities between us and the old world, the Jewish state and our inheritances. We’re all the same. We all struggle the same and it’s all from the beginning. It’s the fall and sin that makes us feel this way.

And in this world, you can see it so clearly because people who have money and wonderful lifestyles still are unhappy. No matter how much money they make, no matter how successful they are, you still see them overdosing or needing pills for depression and taking their lives.

They’re always searching but never finding. This was all messed up in the garden, and now all of mankind is not living what God truly had planned for any of us.

I say all this because if you understand how, it all works then you really understand there’s nothing wrong with you except that you were born in sin. You will continue to have these feelings, always searching and not being fulfilled. One day all those feelings will change when we are walking in our inheritance.

I now have a real understanding of why I could never have lived without him, and I feel blessed that my choices have been the right choices. I know how to work through my life and the obstacles I come across.

I will one day have my true inheritance, and all these feelings will be gone. Our struggles are still there until the end, but it does not mean your ⭐️Christian Walk is not real. It means you’re walking through it with the Lord, till the end where you will live in your true inheritance. Make the right choice, choose Him and you too will have eternal life.

God bless you in your journey!